I’ve been debating if I should blog about this new step in my life. The fact is it is going to be a new part in my life and going to change my life forever. There is no reason not to share it.
Last November after talking to TJ for a long while we decided to start looking into weight loss surgery for me. We have a lot of money in our Health Savings Account, so it wouldn’t be a detriment to our income and so I started considering it.
My First Diet
I have been overweight since third grade. I also just have a larger frame (big boned really is true). But I definitely have extra padding too.
In middle school I made a mad dash to try and loose weight. I pretty much starved myself. I would drink a carnation breakfast drink (usually one spoonful in a glass of milk) for breakfast. I would have baked french fries with ranch for lunch, sharing them with my table (I know healthy choice right, I was 12), and I would pick at my dinner which I was required to eat because my step father made me. When I got down to 140lbs (still 10lbs overweight) my mom took me to Disneyland for the first time.
But Not My Last
After that first diet I still continued to gain weight consistently. Through high school, as hard as I tried not to, through college, and into my marriage. I was at least lucky enough to gain very little at my pregnancies, but after a year after Zarek’s birth I started gaining again. I’m on a new medication and I think that this made the weight gain even worse last year, gaining 50lbs in 6 months.
I’m now at my heaviest I’ve ever been and even now I cannot share the number, yet. I’ve tried diets and diets and diets, with no true success. I can lose 7lbs consistently each time I diet to only turn around and gain even more.
My Last Attempt
I’m down to my last attempt to try and turn my body around. I’ve been praying about this and thinking about it for months.
I also considered trying a treatment that dealt with injections. But after a little reading I decided this was not for me. There was too much worries about hormone issues (and I may want one more baby someday in the future) and I try not to mess with my hormones too much. Plus it sounds like once you are done with the shots it’s really hard to maintain the diet loss.
After researching that option I started researching the Lap Band. This is the direction I believe I will be going with.
To Be Continued
Next week I will be talking more about this so if you would like to see where this leads me I hope you will subscribe to my feed. If you have questions feel free and ask them in the comments.
Pepper – Best of luck to you. You are the only one that knows if this is what you need. You are so smart and talented and I am sure if this is the journey you take you will rock it.
Thanks for the encouragement Nikki! Your a great friend!
Wow, Pep. That’s a big step! I’ll be praying that you guys make the right decisions throughout the process =)
Thanks Nicole – I really appreciate prayers!!
I have a couple of friends who’ve had weight loss surgery and it worked out well for them with a lot of control and some hard work.
I’d love to get lap band for my husband, but we can’t afford it.
It can be very expensive, it wouldn’t even be a possibility if we were so healthy and almost never use out HSA account (which rolls over).
It’s good to hear that there about people who are making it work for them. I feel like even it gave me a few years of weight loss or if it even just got me down a little bit it would be so worth it!
Whew! … Well … only having just “met” you 🙂 all I can say is I admire your transparency and also your heart’s desire to pray about it and find “right” thing. I hope that God will solidify it deep down in your heart (and your hubby’s) what His will is for you. I’ll be back! 🙂
Thanks for stopping by Morgan and for the encouragement!